Finally, after CyberageFunk was hacked two years ago (or however long ago it was) I’ve finally corrected stuff and the site is once again displaying correctly. I’ve been feeling the need to go back to blogging every day.
What’s new?
- I broke my fucking knee crossing a road in Sydney days before I was meant to fly out to the US to meet my then girl friend
- Relationship with the above mentioned girlfriend ended (not on account of broken leg and missed flight – it was complicated!)
- I have my own crummy apartment
- I’ve been studying Networking (mostly Windows Domains)
- Drinking has varied between restraint and outright excess
- The will to live and create has fluctuated wildly
- Self loathing is similarly in a state of constant flux
- Oh, I got a vasectomy – I’m back to my early 20s conclusion that I should not spawn more humans.
So not really a lot of interesting stuff :/ Life has revolved around work and study, and trying to not waste time binge watching shit and being a social media whore. The relationship ending has been the hardest to overcome of recent developments. This time around it was me that ended things. I miss lots of things about it. It was a fun and extremely motivating relationship, like none I’ve ever had. The reasons for ending it… are complicated.
Generally, I’m in a state of funk. I’m back in a no man’s land far from anywhere I want to be. Fuck everything. I want a pack of smokes and a shotgun.
Is living worth the shit? Is the shit worth the struggle? For the normal person that’s always an emphatic yes, omg what the fuck is wrong with you. What says you?
J.C.Rage ending transmission.